my first blog

hey all
i just included a link to the blog i did last year that started me on my beefcake phase. i am still sort of in awe of some of the images that i was able to produce with photoshop. the archangel michael is my favorite.

Drama & Desire

after nearly everyone i know recommended this print show i finally made it over to the museum. i am still trying to process alot of the stuff that i saw. the things that stand out...i was astonished at the age, fragility, vs vibrancy and intact-ness. These scrolls are pristine. i am so taken with their physical presents that the images are secondary. i know completely that the reason that the scroll has just a command over a space is the supreme mastery of these printers but i found myself checking out how things were pieced together and the differences between a landscape scroll (so sexy!) and one of the more traditional vertical scrolls. i liked the screens but the scrolls are amazing. i ended up getting one of the books of the prints from the museum shop and then proceeded straight to blick to acquire supplies. i have not had my hand in art very much lately and seeing that and having so many impressions flash through my head i just need to focus of doing some work.

more stuff from paulo's portfolio

okay, the last group of my pics were some of the older drawings in my entrance portfolio. yes, there were even older ones. :(

these are some of the next steps i took. back in '99 i traveled across the country in a van for around 5 months. I had infected a friend with millenial fever and together we cultivated a near lethal case of travel lust. "Different" became the mind set, the pathway and the destination for the 21st century.

the epic journey is a classic story telling technique allowing changing landscape to mirror internal transformations.

I was armed with a polaroid and my friend was video taping. (video taping makes it seem so dated. )

i think i will be sorting out the information, experiences and images that packed themselves into those few months for the rest of my life.

happy accidents are so gay.

I was on one of the library computers and i found this pic on the desktop. i instantly recognized Harvey Milk the patron saint of the modern gay rights movement. a quick glance through the history files of the computer led me to Robert Arneson. Most of the websites talk about him in regards to his sculpture, self portraits, and political wit. This would not be the first time that i have become enamored with a sculpter's drawings. but it really is his drawings that are sexy.

I spent a lot of time looking at zak smith's "beautiful girls" Voltaire is my favorite. zak has so much of the klimt patterning that i'm into as well as the rampant sexuality that klimt was ALL about.but at the sametime these are definitely portraits in what i understand portraits to be all about

Made in Poland. contemporary pinhole photography

http://www.bostonpolishpinholephotography.com/index.html


Getting to galleries is difficult for me. I work full time at night and on weekends in addition to work study. I also live with My sister and her 6 kids so free time happens when it happens and i have to make the most of it. I have started trying to get here when the buildings open at 7am.

One of the mornings i was in my studio before most people started to arrive i decided to at least look through the doors at the pinhole exhibit up stairs. while looking a very kind gentle man came down the hall saying that it was a wonderful exhibit. when he found out i hadn't seen it yet he said, "I'm not supposed to do this but...." and unlocked the door.

maybe it was the serendipitous opening of the room that created this magical feel but i couldn't help but recall alice and her rabbit hole.

The photography is beautiful. Haunted and haunting. I was struck by how human and psychological the seemed. like Dali's set designs for Spellbound.

some of them created impossible environments while others displayed the body and its inhabitant.

i'm still sorting through my impressions

these are all from around ten years ago.

things have taken a strange turn. I have moved away from the raunch that i have talk up lately and just started to paint. It really is when i am the most comfortable. i need to remember that this semester is almost all book classes. Portfolio is the only art-making class that i am taking at the moment and my life is eaten up by my job and reading. and i just think too much. i know i need to formulate the vocabulary to ensure that i can get viewers to were i want them but it need to follow what i'm doing rather than trying to paint my big thoughts. is that why i can leave the drawn line behind? i'm just acting out the thought process that i spend the day rehearsing mentally. Natasha's mythology has me returning to work that i also developed around mythology. I apprenticed with a story teller regularly for ten years. Over the course of that time i developed a series of stories of angels. they weren't the same as the angels that my tradition roman catholic mentor anticipated. Winged beings cross over several cultures as messengers. my angels were just that winged beings with a message for me. Imagine a winged being arriving in your life and delivering exactly what you need to be well. guides that offer gifts, knowledge, directions, protection, comfort. many of the "love knows how to fight" series echoed these stories.

luis Caballero

this man makes me want to paint.

Bill Gedney

I have always been attracted to photographs. Bill Gedney is probably my favorite. He has created a body of portraits that are some of the most humbling accomplishments. Beautiful. i dont think i can think of an artist whose work i model my own after but Mr. Gedney is a lofty goal.

first stop

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Masculinity

i was hoping this would be a basic plae to start. but it seems to be a an of worms anytime its discussed. note the warning about the neutrality beibg disputed about the page.

artist that i am looking at right now. there is something uncomforatble about his figures that make wonder why i enjoy them so much.

one more time from the top

i found that i was really feeling constricted by the title of my blog. i was trying to wrap all my posts around sex. this title is a lot more expansive. Quest makes everything sound new agey. yuck.

it's art son.

after looking at a bunch of pictures that had me convinced i was going to be kicked out of the library, i dont think my artwork is about sex. i kinda wish it was. then i wouldn't have to figure out what i'm trying to get at.

i just don't feel sexy

over the past week i have given introductions to myself and my artwork in almost all of my classes. and i am so sick of looking at all this sex stuff that i haven't actually done any art. when i started to do these male figures the mine field of figurative painting stretched out before me and i felt i had to have a stance and a controlled path through the treacherous territory. i don't know about that anymore. yesterday after checking out this british artist player who offers a mixed bag of "gay skinhead" and "mates" illustrations i feel all grossed out. The raunchier ones work better. two skin heads climaxing onto a third is pretty funny and intense. the mates stuff looks like a a skin head version of the illustrations on the back of readers digest. You know the suburban scenes populated with giant-headed families titled with shit like "week end warrior". the wrong kind of nasty. i had been thinking i wanted to move away from the typical gay male art focused purely around sex but i think i may just put the whole think on the back burner. i have a tendency to over think EVERYTHING. this may be a time when i need to chill the out

9-18-7 class

i am out of practice with being in front of a class. it was surprising how much my hands were shaking

Mishima Goh