first stop

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Masculinity

i was hoping this would be a basic plae to start. but it seems to be a an of worms anytime its discussed. note the warning about the neutrality beibg disputed about the page.

artist that i am looking at right now. there is something uncomforatble about his figures that make wonder why i enjoy them so much.

one more time from the top

i found that i was really feeling constricted by the title of my blog. i was trying to wrap all my posts around sex. this title is a lot more expansive. Quest makes everything sound new agey. yuck.

it's art son.

after looking at a bunch of pictures that had me convinced i was going to be kicked out of the library, i dont think my artwork is about sex. i kinda wish it was. then i wouldn't have to figure out what i'm trying to get at.

i just don't feel sexy

over the past week i have given introductions to myself and my artwork in almost all of my classes. and i am so sick of looking at all this sex stuff that i haven't actually done any art. when i started to do these male figures the mine field of figurative painting stretched out before me and i felt i had to have a stance and a controlled path through the treacherous territory. i don't know about that anymore. yesterday after checking out this british artist player who offers a mixed bag of "gay skinhead" and "mates" illustrations i feel all grossed out. The raunchier ones work better. two skin heads climaxing onto a third is pretty funny and intense. the mates stuff looks like a a skin head version of the illustrations on the back of readers digest. You know the suburban scenes populated with giant-headed families titled with shit like "week end warrior". the wrong kind of nasty. i had been thinking i wanted to move away from the typical gay male art focused purely around sex but i think i may just put the whole think on the back burner. i have a tendency to over think EVERYTHING. this may be a time when i need to chill the out

9-18-7 class

i am out of practice with being in front of a class. it was surprising how much my hands were shaking

Mishima Goh